It’s that time again, soon it will be sunset at 10 pm with soft sweet smelling breezes, I am looking forward to the warm summer nights. I woke up at 6 am this morning, but it was actually 7 already because of the time change. That’s okay, I’m exhausted, will get to bed early tonight and perhaps even hit that 5:30 am goal for the first time tomorrow. It would fall on the 10th day of the Juice Feast..hmm that sounds like a good match, we’ll see.
As I said I am feeling really tired today, I was up late again last night finishing up some important projects and chose to wake up early no matter what to start that cycle that I’ve been talking about for a long, long time.
On the Feast Menu Today:
Juice #1: Beet, Radish w/Tops, Bell Pepper, Romaine, Celery, Cilantro, Cucumber, Garlic, Kale, Apple and Lemon
Juice #2: Celery, Kale, Apple, lemon, Cilantro, Cucumber
Juice #3: Apple, Grapefruit, Orange, Ginger, Celery
1 Tbs. Hemp Oil
2 tsp. E-3 Live
1 Tbs. Spirulina
2 tsp. Bee Pollen
It may have been the lack of sleep but many emotions arose today. The last few days of ease and peace were not quite replicated today. I experienced cravings and desire for all sorts of comfort foods, I felt lonesome for friends, longed for some type of stimulation and just wasn’t feeling the highest. One thing is for sure, there will be ups and downs in this process. I have much stored in me that is ready to break free. The most important thing seems to be, remaining comfortable riding the waves as they come. To be able to look at the emotion, of feeling and just be a witness to it without having to act out the desire it is expressing.
What I got from todays episode was that my creative fire or energy is used to being muzzled by food and other forms of non creative stimulation. A feeling may arise that is a bit unsettling, or impatient; normally my first reaction may be to get up and go to the fridge, am I hungry, are there any sweets perhaps a cup of creamy tea and a little piece of dark chocolate (that was always a favorite), then I feel a sense of satisfaction come over me. But, what really happened? I’m no scientist but my intuitive guess is that those sugary snacks settle or suppressed that energy that was looking for a way to be expressed.Perhaps tasting food is creativity to a certain extent, and as a chef I can say it truly is, however there is a time and portion to that art as well as a method for the heightened physiological balance. So I am being trained to know when is the time for the art of taste and when is the time for another form of creative action.
I went throughout almost the whole day feeling these unsettled feelings and I had my juice, my water, my breath and my thoughts. I knew this would pass and my creative action rather than eating was to journal about the experience and go out for a walk. Sometimes one must experience a little discomfort to get into a deeper more fulfilled sort of comfort.
After the warmest day of the year so far I look forward to an evening of warm and awakened dreams, Blessings and Love, Chaya