Living Vision

May 23rd, 1 a.m. my little boy came into the world. His name is Hodayah Aketriel and he is truly a precious holy being and angelic soul!

My life will never be the same……I have entered into the mystery of motherhood. Unlike anything I could have ever expected or foreseen – my level of respect, awe, and reverence for all Mom’s has just reached a new height. I knew, but never really knew how much it takes to be a Mom and what Motherhood is really all about. I’m sure I still don’t have an inkling of it, but am much closer than I was ever before.

How do I Live Vision (my life’s VISION while being there to support my child also living his life’s VISION) as Mother????? I pose this question because I have found days come and go and all I seem to have time for is feeding, changing, cuddling, etc. all Holy and beautiful things – but what about making raw foods, writing a blog, reading books, dancing, music, etc. I know there will be time for these things in the future, but it is important that I am in line with purpose/vision now and to stay in line with my essence while providing for my son.

In just a month and a half (almost) of being a Mom I have learned many things about staying grounded in me and being everything for another like patience,  trust, and embracing this moment fully….What I have witnessed from the outside and am now understanding more fully from the inside is that Motherhood gives one a kick in the but to the opportunity of truly living in the heights of integrity. How so? Because in order to find the balance between myself and this new being who needs me fully to be for him I must push through challenges like never before, I must be there for him in every way – from eating foods that will serve him and me both, to waking up whenever he needs to help him in ways he cannot yet help himself, to overcoming my fears of inadequacy, low self esteem, self distrust…..these things have always been there, but I was never forced to look at them or even more so look past them and move beyond – I must drop my ego and be a life and vitality for one who solely depends on me for all his needs – there is no room for fear (even though the feeling comes and goes – I must continually let it go to be present and of service). There is no room or time for laziness, what must be done, must be done.

Another way Motherhood is giving me a new opportunity to “Live Vision” is by showing me how strong I am. Even when it feels like there is NO way I can muster the strength to get through this (the birth process for one) I have no choice and must go beyond myself to push through and fulfill that which I have begun.  This gives me a reference point for the fact that I ABSOLUTELY have the strength – it may be the hardest hing I have ever done, but I can do it – this is something that I can use now for any situation I come across on my journey of life.

I have been finding the teachings of Abraham very helpful and inspiring at this time. If you haven’t yet heard of her Esther Hicks gives inspirational Q&A sessions as a vessel for truly inspired universal teachings by an Entity that calls itself Abraham. It may sound wacky and I don’t go searching for “channels” or “psychics” or Universal teachers – I am actually an observant Jewish Woman, but when I hear truth I hear truth and I listen. This has touched my soul and speaks to my essence  as truth. I highly recommend checking out some videos on youtube. For now I want to share a couple of videos that have been very helpful. This first one is on Parenting, and supports taking full responsibility for yourself, your emotions, your happiness as the only way to truly be able to help your children…please check this out:

This next one teaches one how to stay in alignment via the thoughts and feelings we hold…..so important:

Both of these videos have been very supportive in a more graceful transition into Motherhood while allowing the space for my individuality in parallel to the Unity.

I am thrilled for this new life and all that comes with it. I am totally IN LOVE with my family, and fall more and more in love every day. As I write my baby is squeaking and squirming all bundled up in a Moby wrap on my chest. When Hodayah cries, I love him, smile and let him know all is well, when he is being mellow I may meditate with him, take a walk, say some prayers, work a little on a blog post, check out the beautiful changing face of my son…whatever it is – I am doing my best to stay easy, open, relaxed and in love.

It will be a joy and pleasure to keep you updated on our journey together and my journey as a raw foods chef – for now I can’t imagine how I will get out there professionally again, and yet I know after a few months everything will be different – I will have more time, or routine – in any case what will be will be and I am embracing life fully!

In my next post I want to talk to you about what has been going on with my diet from getting pregnant to where I am at now – and where Hodayah is at. There is a lot to say there and a lot of exciting choices for forward movement that I am sure will be of support to some of you reading the blog.

For now sending you warm cuddly baby love from the bay!

Chaya